Since I have been back from Africa, I have been in a funk. I don't like it. The trip completley changed my life & I knew from the begining it was what the Lord wanted me to do. He has put things on my heart since I have been back but I know Satan is trying to stop me. I feel overwhelmed. I feel sad.
It breaks my heart when I hear people say that we need to help America before we help other countries. Don't get me wrong. I know there is a huge mission that needs to be taken care of here in the USA. I believe it is what the Lord puts on your heart. I am all about doing a mission trip HERE. That is not going to stop me from doing international work. The Lord didn't say "stay in your own country & worry about your own country before you help in other countries". I can tell you this.....The homeless in America still have access to clean water.
I will never forget all the negative comments I heard when I announced I was doing this trip. "We need to examine ourseves here before we purchase an international plane ticket." Comments about how there is plenty to do here. "I could never leave my kid that long." God bless them all. I pray you do WHATEVER it is the Lord wants you to do.
I think of the things we take advantage of here. All the clean water we want. I can drink as much water as I want in a day & not worry. Produce, I don't worry that much anymore about the produce being clean or something being wrong with it. I know I can still get sick but it doesn't even compare to Ethiopia. I couldn't imagine not always having toilet paper in the bathroom. (sorry TMI). Even soap to wash my hands with. Also, school is FREE here. FREE! Not in Africa. & most kids don't go to school because they can't afford it.
Aahhh, What is next....I don't know. Prayers & patience. The Lord is good. He will get me out of this & He will lead me to what is next.