Sunday, January 31, 2010

3 M's & church

I am in this 3 month long group that our preacher's wife Rae Deal does for 3 moms. It is 3 books (manuels), 3 moms, & 3 months. Right now we are reading a book called "spiritual disciplines for the christian life" by Donald S. Whitney. I have really learned a lot from this book. This book has really been a help for me in discipline. It is teaching me that if I want to get better at something I have to discipline myself. My quiet time has gotten better since reading this & it is because of discipline. I am praying my time with God is even better. There is a quote I got from this book that really hit me. "The child of God works not for life, but from life; he does not work to be saved, he works b/c he is saved." This quote really made me think about how I need to have joy in everything I do b/c of what God has done for me. It's something that no one else could ever do for me or I could never do for anyone else.

Wow what can I even say about church today?? One man prayed that we thought it was a coincidence that the snow & sleet happened but it was all God. We got to come together as a church family & pray together. All 4 services were combined into one & it was fantastic. The worship was great, the preaching was great & it was all GOD! I want to thank God so much for our church. I don't like to call myself baptist. I am a christian. I love my church. I love the nursery where Piper goes & gets taken care of by people who love her & I love our lifegroup! I can't tell you how much I have learned from our lifegroup & what great leaders the Cavallo's are. We spoke on prayer at church today & how we need to come together as a church & pray for people like Michael McCutcheon & Danny Burton. We need to thank God for our salvation & what he's done for us.

~Be still & know that I am God.~ Psa 46:10

A call to prayer

A~ Adoration
C~ Confession
T~ Thanksgiving
S~ Supplication

*Praise God, Confess to God, Thank God, & Lift People up to God.

*You can have peace with God through Jesus (Phill. 4:7)

Saturday, January 30, 2010

This little girl...

...better stay out of the cake! Everytime Beau or me wasn't looking she was digging into the cake! What a mess!
We finally just threw it away!

Spankings...

I am just going to say, I am all about spanking. Not all the time & not beating. I was in a group on babycenter.com & someone made a post about spankings. In my siggy I have that I love Jesus. I wrote that I support spanking. Someone wrote "I don't know how violence & loving Jesus go together". I politely said I could give her bible verses. Anyway now I can truely see what is wrong with the world today. Little ones don't get spankings. Moms feel bad so they don't spank them & it is teaching them violence.

" Do not withhold correction from a child, For if you beat him with a rod, he will not die. You shall beat him with a rod, And deliver his soul from hell." Prov. 23:13-14. God says if we love our children we will spank them.

"The rod rebuke give wisdom, but a child left to himself brings shame to his mother. "Prov. 29:15.

I believe that God wants us to spank our children. It is hard sometimes but we have to & I think these verses show that they pay off....

6 inches of snow!!!!!!!

We got 6 inches of snow! We are thankful for it. It is just beautiful! Beau was out working in the sleet & cold cold weather so me & Piper made him a cake.

Not the prettiest cake but he liked it.
Piper looking at all the sleet
Sleet! Before the snow came.
We had to eat some of the chocolate icing.
I had the cake up on the table so Beau could see it when he got home. Piper was up & kept saying "i'm not gonna touch it". Then when I wasn't look she snuck some icing. I told her no so she started pouting.
Beau got home & Piper immediatley said "daddy look at your cake". I said no Piper let's suprise him. I wasn't getting on to her but she thought I was. HA
SNOW!!

Piper throwing a snowball at me.
She absolutley loves the snow. The smile on her face makes me really happy.
Beau playing in the snow.
Piper getting Beau with a snowball.
Still snowing that night.
Last winter we got no snow (just ice) This is our 2nd snow this winter. :)
Our back yard this morning.
I love this picture of the trees.
Our family! Loving the snow. :)
Beau starting the snowman.
More snowballs.


In honor of watching UP lastnight we named our snowman Kevin (after the bird)
Kevin is a girl :)
Becky, Piper, & Kevin
Kevin, Beau, & Piper
Going back inside.
This is how far it snowed up the UPWARD sign.
We don't get weather like this very often so we are so thankful that we got to go out & enjoy it. & we got to stay home & enjoy some quality time as a family. Eating hot soup all day, popcorn, chocolate cake, watching movies & just relaxing. I am thankful for my husband who is the man he is & Piper who God gave to me. They are both truely a gift from God & I thank Him everyday. Thank you Lord for the snow!

UP

Have ya'll seen this movie? Beau rented it lastnight for us to watch as a family. Very cute! Some sad moments but we all liked it!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Tim Tebows commercial

~I am sure most of you have already heard of this! Can't wait to see it. Haven't been a Tebow fan but glad he is a christian.

GAINESVILLE, Fla. — Tim Tebow is taking his star power to sport's biggest stage.
The former Florida quarterback and his mother will appear in a 30-second commercial during the Super Bowl next month. The Christian group Focus on the Family says the Tebows will share a personal story centering on the theme "Celebrate Family, Celebrate Life."
The group isn't releasing details, but the commercial is likely to be an anti-abortion message chronicling Pam Tebow's 1987 pregnancy. After getting sick during a mission trip to the Philippines, she ignored a recommendation by doctors to abort her fifth child and gave birth to Tim.
The 2007 Heisman Trophy winner ended his college career with several NCAA, Southeastern Conference and school records, and two national championships. Tebow also has been very involved in his family's Christian-based ministry.
Jim Daly, president and CEO of Focus on the Family, said the commercial comes at a time when "families need to be inspired."
"Tim and Pam share our respect for life and our passion for helping families thrive," Daly said. "Focus on the Family is about ... strengthening families by empowering them with the tools they need to live lives rooted in morals and values."
Thirty-second commercials during the Super Bowl are selling for between $2.5 million and $2.8 million. Daly said all the funds for the ad came from a handful of "very generous and committed friends," and that no money from the group's general fund was used.
"Now that the ad has been shot, we're excited to tell people it's coming because the Tebows' story is such an important one for our culture to hear," he said. "You won't want to miss it.

Oh ya

for those who care.... My blood levels are back to normal! I am thanking God. Such a relief!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Today at Mrs. B's

It's been a while since I got to have all these little ones together....We had a very productive day.
Jasper is all over the place now!
Kids love making their hands!

writing & Barney

Piper & Barney :)

I have been practicing writing with Piper. This is just a straight line but Piper took her pencil & did a straight line today. I was so excited. Some she didn't do so good on but I was proud of her.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

1st bulldog basketball game

Piper went to her first bulldog basketball game friday night. Not with mommy & daddy but with Mr. Tony & Mrs. Gina. She was good & had a great time! Beau & I can't wait to take her!
This is another hat Gina made for Piper!

Friday, January 22, 2010

M&P

These 2 were jumping on our bed & had our room destroyed!

video

Yesterday Piper was sitting on the potty & had both of her legs propped up on the seat. She peed on both of us! Gross but funny!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Blood level

My levels were not back to normal. :( They were at 10. I have to go back next monday to have it checked again. They want it below 5. Praying that it will be.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Funny story/dr. appt.

My mom, brother, & nephew came up for the wknd...It was great!!

Lastnight Piper & Michael Wayne were on my bed watching cartoons. Michael comes to me & says "aunt Becky, Piper peed on your bed". So I went to Piper & asked her what this wet spot was on my bed. She looked at my nephew like she knew he told on her & was pretty mad. You could see it. I said "did you pee on my bed?" She said no. Michael said "Piper you don't pee on aunt Becky's bed". She looked at him & screamed "I didn't pee I spill it". I said you spilled what? She said her juice. I realized she wasn't wet & told Michael it was okay, she didn't pee. A few minutes later she went in the room where my mom was. She said "Mimi, I'm mad!''. My mom asked her why she was mad. She said "Michael Wayne said I peed & I spilled it". Mom told MW to tell Piper sorry. He did then she says "i'm happy now." HILARIOUS!!!

DR. APPOINTMENT

I went back to the dr. today. They did blood work & I will find out tomorrow if my levels are back to normal. Beau & I really love my dr. He is WONDERFUL! He really makes us feel comfortable & he is definatley good at what he does. He said we could start trying again after a month but we think we are going to wait a while.... Praying for good blood levels so I don't have to keep going back!!!

Friday, January 15, 2010

We had to pick Piper up from the nursery wed night. She was crying & wouldn't quit. She has never done that. We have missed 4 weeks of church b/c of everything that thas been going on so I wondered if that was it... Mrs Tonia, Mrs. Dana, & Miss Rachel tried to get her mind on other things but it didn't work. O' well. We will try it again....
This girl has a big imagination.....She is always pretending. She likes to put a blanket down on the floor & act like it is a boat.
She also likes to pretend she is people on shows.
She remembers everything!

When we ask Piper something & she says yes we tell her to say "yes please". Yesterday while cooking dinner she came to tell me her nose was running. I told her hold on let me wash my hands. She said "are you washing your hands? Say yes please". Hilarious!

When Piper gets impatient b/c she can't do something she throws a fit. We say Piper do you need help. She says yes so we tell her, "okay all you had to do was ask for help." Beau was talking to her yesterday. He asker her a question, can't remember what it was. She said to him "If you need help just say help please". :)
Piper likes to say everyone is her bestfriend. "daddy you're my best friend". "mommy you're my best friend". "Dora is my bestfriend". so sweet:)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

=D

First of all, I would like to say happy birthday to sweet Brittany!!! Hope you've had a great day & we hope to see you & PJ soon!!!!
Here is little miss Daisy Faye. She is my cousin Tessa's little girl. She was having her at the hospital when I had my miscarriage. She is absolutley beautiful!!! 18 in. 7lbs 12oz

Ah, I've just got to say that I have learned alot through this miscarraige. I hate bringing it up but God had me go through it for a reason. Here are some things I have learned:
~Don't try to make your own plans that aren't God's plans. Obviously I was supposed to get pregnant but he had something in mind.
~ He is teaching me patience through this.
~I've learned that he has great plans for me & Beau. I am excited about that.
~I believe that God is trying to bring me & Beau closer together & have that oneness that married people have. Don't get me wrong. My husband is my best friend but I think God wants us to be closer.
~I also believe this has definatley been a growing process for us. Growing in the Lord that is.

God has a time for us to have another baby. I truely believe we will have one one day. You can bet that we are praying more for the timing. God will let us know when & I will be so thankful. In the mean time I am going to love my little girl more & squeeze her more.


There has been so many people there for us in this hard time. We have had phone calls, cards & letters. We feel so blessed. Tonia Hobbs! Thank you for the note! Lisa Dean (Ashley Hogeland's mom) even sent me a card. That meant alot!



Jason & Jana Green had us over last week to talk about it. Alot of people told me to talk to someone who has been through it & it helped alot. So thankful for them!!! One disappointment is that I was going to be pregnant with a good friend. We were only 5 days apart. :( But I am extremely happy for them & I prayed for them to get pregnant. God is SO SO GOOD. I can't quit saying that.


I have to say that I am extremley thankful for the hard times that my family has been through lately. God has truely shown how great, big, & mighty He is though it all. The all loving, all knowing God. Thank you JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

I cut Piper's hair!!!

Tuesday night when we got home I gave Piper a bath & did this......
CUT HER HAIR!!
Got it a little too short!
OMG!
Piper's hair is so thin right now & I have been wanting to even it up & let it grow out. I am growing her bangs out to & that has been a pain.

My life last wknd

This was my life last wknd.....This is how it happened. These were the air 1 verses of the day 3 days in a row & it amazes me how it was going on in my life...

Me:
"I am praying to you because I know you will answer, O God. Bend down and listen as I pray." Psa 17:6

Me crying out:
"O LORD, hear my plea for justice. Listen to my cry for help. Pay attention to my prayer, for it comes from honest lips. "

Gods answer:
"Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus." 1 Thess 5:17-18

~He does have other plans for me......:)

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

I am an emotional rollorcoaster

Yesterday I woke up praying. I felt some joy b/c I was thinking that God has big plans for me. I know they must be great plans! I was feeling better. Still had my sad moments. Beau & I came home yesterday evening. It was a quiet ride. I still can't believe what has happened. It is hard for me to believe I am not pregnant anymore. Now that I am back home in AR away from my family I think things have really hit. I have been an emotional rollorcoaster like never before. I have all these questions. WHY WHY WHY?? What did I do wrong? Is it my fault? What could I have done different? Is it going to happen again? Will I be able to have another child? I do understand that miscarraiges happen to alot of women. I am thankful for all those who have supported me who have been through what I just went through. I know women who have had it alot worse than me....

People have been giving me great verses...

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace & not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jerem. 29:11 (this verse makes my heart happy) (Ashley Hardcastle & Mandy McMillan gave me this verse)

Ps. 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." (Nita Carter gave me this one)

I am so thankful for my aunt Liz. She is the one who suggested I go ahead & go to the dr. She prayed with Beau & me before the dr. had come in with the results. She & uncle Bob went to wal-mart to get me clothes to wear home & they waited while I had my surgery. She loves me so much & I am thankful she was there with us. I am thankful for her husband Bob who went with us as well although he had to work the next day. They didn't get to bed until after 4. :( I am thankful for my mom who was keeping Piper for me. I knew she was taken care of.

Thanking God for trying to show me what it is He is trying to show me. For trying to make me into the person He wants me to be. I pray that I can see what it is He is trying to show me & be who He wants me to be. Praying hard! I don't think I have ever begged God to answer my prayers like I did when I knew I was losing the baby. Whatever He is doing to me. I know it is so good & I am so thankful for that.

Have you ever lost something & looked & looked & couldn't find it? I do that alot then I say a little prayer & it amazes me how I just find it instantly. It amazes me how hard I prayed for my baby to be saved & it didn't come true but something as simple as finding something does come true. That is God at work.

Please God let me see what you are showing me! Thank you for bringing me through. There I said it...almost....Thank you GOD for loving me so much! I don't know what I am trying to say. It's all just up & down. I know I love the Lord & he is helping me getting through......I am crying as I write this b/c I haven't ever been through this. All the emotion, & thoughts, & I just feel the love of God. Anyway, that is all for now.

God is SO GOOD!!!!!!!

Monday, January 4, 2010

Can't believe I am blogging about this..

Well, here is goes.....

I have been praying hard the last 3 days. God didn't answer my prayers:(

This may be TMI for some people...( I AM SERIOUS)

New Years Eve night when I was going to bed I noticed a little spotting. It wasn't such a big deal b/c I did the same thing with Piper at the same week. The next day it was still going on. No cramps. Little more than what I did with Piper. The day after that (saturday the 5th) I was bleeding a little more. A few clots (sorry) & cramping some. Nothing too bad. We decided to go to my moms in Antlers for the night so we could see my brother. Beau had to work at the church that evening so we didn't get to Antlers until about 10:15. That night I started cramping a little more I woke a few times in the night cramping. Sunday I had even more blood (sorry again) & I was cramping a little harder. My aunt Liz found out & suggested we go to Durant to the hospital & get checked out. We decided to go. I had been stressing & worried for 3 days & I wan't to just find out. The first thing the dr. did was check to see if my cervics was open or closed. He never said but we knew it wasn't good. I bled alot & he said he was going to order an ultrasound b/c he didn't like how much blood there was. Beau & I did not have a good feeling. Then the nurse brought me some tissue. That wasn't a good sign. They then did blood work they never told me my count but then sent me for an ultrasound. I was getting dressed & saw the pictures pop up on the machine. I saw a little blob & regained hope. I came back in & told aunt Liz & Beau that I believed there was still hope. About 30 minutes later the dr. came in & we knew it wasn't good. He told us we are losing the baby & they never found a heartbeat. That was it, it was confirmed. Our baby wasn't alive. He said the OB wanted me to do a D&C. He said I have a chance of infection & I wouldn't know when it was going to pass & I would be in quite a bit of pain. The upside of the DNC was that I would get it over with. I was still a little worried. We took a minute & decided on a DNC. When they took me to have surgery I need to go to the bathroom. I went in & passed two BIG blood clots. I was laying in the room where they were prepping me for surgery. My aunt, uncle, & Beau were talking with the dr. while we waited for the anesthesiolgist. They (my family) left & they gave me my medicine & put my oxygen on. The dr. was asking me questions & I knew she was just waiting for me to go to sleep. I finally said I am sleepy is it okay if I go to sleep. She said yes & I was out. I woke up & I knew they had more to do. I felt like I just dozed off but they were done. I was groggy but felt okay. I had to go to a room after recovery for an hour then got to leave. I was cramping a little but not too bad. I couldn't believe that my baby was gone. :^(Dr. Taylor (the OBGYN that did my surgery) said most of it was gone so she didn't have alot to do.

While we were at the hospital we found out my cousin Tessa was there having her baby. That was neat. Daisy Faye was born this morning at 7:30. I will give more details later. What a blessing though.

I have to say that God didn't answer my prayer about this but I know He knows what is best. He has something planned for Beau & me & I can't wait to see what. I know He loves me so much & He is still SO good! I do believe with all my heart that I will get to hold our baby again some day.

I also want to share that during this whole pregnancy I had a weird feeling. Something just wasn't right. I read a lot of message boards about people who were supposed to be due in aug. & moms who had miscarraiges & things like that. I thought maybe I was getting discouraged b/c of all the bad things I was reading. No, I didn't know what was going on but it wasn't a good feeling. About the 2nd day of spotting I just knew I was losing the baby. I didn't say anything but I just knew. On the way to Antlers I told Beau that I really felt like I was losing the baby. I also told my mom that I didn't think things were going to be okay. I did still have that little bit of hope. As much as I prayed for God to just save our baby I knew that He still had a plan.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Please pray

~I am asking for prayer. Can't go into detail right now but please pray....

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year

We had a little get together with friends at our house for New Years. It was great! The girls hung out & visited for a while while the guys watched a movie.
All the girls! I love all these girls so much! I am thankful for them!
We played some Guesstures. The girls dominated! We were awesome! Sorry guys!

The ones that made it to midnight. Drinking our sparkling grape juice. I love it!
I am very excited about this new year. Can't wait to see what God has planned. Seriously!
I think my New Years resolution is going to be to help those in need. I always say I want to but never actually do it. I think it is hard to find people but I know they are all around me. Please pray for me to find my opportunity & to fulfill Gods plan & not my own. I want to be pro-active.